'no matter what they say about love, i keep coming back for more'

I met this kid last year at smithtown day. from the day i met him i have always been attracted to him. he has that addicting personality and is just so much fun to be around. we got together a few months after we met that summer. it didnt last very long. i got very nervous for having a boyfriend and broke up with him. when the school year started he went to west and i went to east. we were still close friends and everything was fine. his dad died one day and i felt terrible. after seeing him the way he was i couldnt let him deal with all of it alone so we went back out. that relationship also didnt last long. we ended up fighting constantly and just ended it. i havent spoken to him in a long time untill about a month or two ago. we decided to get back together and i was so excited. but the next day he was hooking up with another girl. i was so hurt i didnt want any part of him any longer. but knowing me i started speaking to him again and things were cooled down. he apologized and we spoke things out for quite awhile. this past week he has not made any effort to speak to me. he's been making up lies and totally shutting me out. we had plans to hang out all weekend but because he didnt speak to me all week, the plans were canceled. i tried talking to him and he told me he had things going on that he had no time to talk to me. i didnt belive it so now im sitting here wondering what i was thinking going back to him for the 4th time. everytime i see him my feelings for him come back, stronger. i dont know what to do anymore. so im going to try moving on and forgetting about him. i'm in love with him.